The wedding~

Weddings are occasions which i normally hate to go.
Occasions like this makes me wanna wargh!!!!
Sorry to say especially malay weddings.
Ok not trying to criticise but it is very boring.
to tell you the truth i always try to avoid myself from going to weddings.
But this wedding.
It was my friends wedding.
Although I only know her for just a few months.
I can say she is very interesting and dont care about others
just the way she is.
If she wants to eat she eats.
What she wants to do.
she just do.
Thats the way to go gurl.
Hooyeah!!!
I can call the hulu balang org gila2 ppl.
haha... In this hulu balang.
hmm... what i want to be eh???
I only want to be the bendahara and collect tax!XD
haha.. ok cut the silly crap.
God knows why i keep on reminding myself.
Ok I MUST GO TO HER WEDDING!
With determination I end up at her wedding yesterday.
Ok to be honest. this is my 1st time going to a very dinner like wedding.
Usually, the weddings that i go. pergi makan tgk pengantin berarak then salam2 and balik.
thats all.
But this one. The feeling like it was at an eurasion wedding only minus the dancing and the what so ever than is not suppose to be there. If you know what I mean.
And all the sudden I was acting prim & not so proper yet going nuts!
as usual. I was nuts yesterday. Infact in the car i started laughing like a pontianak. hahaha...
That is me being me. No one else. Korg malu. malu la. pergi mampus! Hihihi... like i care...lalala...
This wedding puts me into my day dreaming mode~
So i started to berangan.
It was a very simple wedding yet versatile but it droves everyone into lovey dovey mood.
Oo...
Then i started to look around.
Haih~ everyone with family.
everyone were happy.
everyone or more like most of everyone was with little kids.
Hurm...:(
when is my turn?
I want kids. I want a partner too. I want someone who can drag me everywhere he go or the other way round.
They look happy.
They look lovely.
So i wonder. When can I get that person?
when???
Well~ it looks like a long way to go. hurm...

day dreaming

Today is my day dreaming day.

What did i dream about???

I did nothing today except berangan.

haha...

Hmm... lets see...

berangan2....

That im married. to who???

entah. Im not sure no particular individual in this case.

Just stuff like...

It would be nice if I get a husband that loves to go jalan2 and at the same time

he enjoy bringing me along eventhough he wants to meet his friends or have some

teh tarik only at anytime and anyday.

Then....kan best if he is also as bonkus ( eccentric ) as I am. Loves to do crazy stuff and try new things that would be even more interesting.

I want someone who loves me for who I am not my looks, my property but just me.

He who could gives honest comments on my dressing.

who would make comments that would make me look even more pleasing. who could bring around for shopping because he would be the one who is helping me on my clothes choice.

( Honestly Im really not good at shopping when it comes to my own clothes :( )

He wont control me but we would give proper advises and keep an eye on me on my subconscious and uncontrollable whereabouts.

Because Im the type that sometimes I would do things or wonder around without me noticing. So I need someone who can look after me from far. Especially when I started to do this. :D

Who can have long conversation with me and enjoy talking with me eventhough the topic does not make any sense.

And most important of all. someone who trust me.

Who would support on whatever good things that I wanna do.

Who could understand that Im a workaholic and sometimes I end up putting my work first before myself.

Who could remind me on important stuff or things that im not suppose to do.

Who also has expensive taste when it comes to things.

Who is not the type which is easy to be influence by others.

Who is fun and crack alot of interesting and logical jokes.

Who has alot of knowledge, intelligent and loves searching for more knowledge. and would tell me about it.

Who does not think big.

Who is not snobbish that is for sure. :]

Who could help me in anything and everything including house work. Cause I dont think I am able to do everything by myself and I do not want a maid. I hate maids!

that would be interesting. kan kan...

Lebih2 lg if that person is the fair skin type of indian, modern, very open minded, and his english is much better than mine.

Ok this is how i end up day dreaming today. -_-'

ni sume cume angan2 je. so do ignore.

HappY B'Day!!!!

Time flies and today at last I'm 22 years old. haiya~ Y so old ma.... Everyone change from time to time.But I just wanna be myself no one but myself and no one can change me except me! Dont hope or Try too cause I wont want to change yet! Thank You! The quote that people always says as people gets older from day by day they will eventually change. Hmm.... lets see what have I change??? Getting lazier~ Of course! haha... ^^ that one is for sure. Neh~ kidding but Im very very or shall i say extermly lazy if I am not in the mood. Any other changes??? Hmm...Yes there are a few....The obvious ones are my confidence, my eccentricness, my fashion????, my daringness, my hardheadedness..... haha i think that are the things that I notice. I have change in these criteria. yup. Like I care~ Coz I dont. that the problem with me. Tired of caring about others when others do not care about me. I do whatever I want by myself. and I can assure you it feels exteremly AWSOME!!! hahaha..... But one think people miss judge me. that I feel exteremly irritated! Feels like slaughtering these people one by one! Wacha!!! Neh~ I am not that cruel. :D The thing that i feel very very irritated is when people tries to change me into what they want or more like becoming as boring as them. hahaha...Kejam! No the point is frankly speaking, 1st of all I am not a MALAY! The only think that is MALAY on me is MY BLOODY IC and THATS ALL!!! If I can understand your way of life, your custom why cant all of you do the same thing to me??? Y do you must change me?! Into good??? as you said GOOD! yeah rite GOOD la sgt! More Like restraining my liberty and my prerogative! Which I hate it. So much! Im not defining it in terms of Religion and I shall not touch this topic. So dont misunderstood me. Im only talking about culture and our up bringings. How we grow up. 1st of all. I dont really like the normal lame malay food, I prefer chinese cookings. I eat differently from everyone. Im not picky but i dont get engross into cookings that relate to mesti makan nasi. I cant eat too much of rice. Then my character wise~ I may look social I mean in a not so good way but I don't do thinks that you think i do. Not because of pleasure. but I am the type that I prefer to stay at home and malas2~ hahaa.... I will only go out with friends and most of my friends that I go out are girls. No joke. I may have a lot of guy friends but I prefer to go out girls. :D lepaking??? hmm...only makan time! I love to jalan2 cari makan and this the reason why Im gaining weight! :D I like to walk but due to the condition of people nowdays I dont really go for a walk and of course semakin malas! haha...... Next~ My family ok. 1st of all I am a mix of rojak but i prefer to be rojak buah. Cause fruits are sweet and healthy. So of course I dare say I am not close to my malay family side. Y??? Entahla.... Im close to my Not Malay side and my attitude are more towards that side. Another thing. I love writing. I love expressing myself through writing but I hate people take my saying seriously. Im just expressing my opinions about things. Yup I know I think differently. I may think like a grown up but I act childishly.Very childishly.... until people misunderstood me and label me for being inmatured. :D heee... deception. and I like it. haha... My first language is English not Malay thats y I sucks in Malay language. But I can speak both language fluently but when it come to writing. I prefer to write in english. Ok. I think I mumble too much here. Haih~ I love talking trash....as usual..:D ok have fun! And Happy BirthDy Too Me!!!!:D

Current Me!

Argh!!! I cant stand working here! Its freaking boring! But I need to work since now I am the only one who is supporting my family so I do not have a choice. I really extremely want to continue my studies. I want to do my Masters for good! Really envy my friends who are doing their masters now. Errr... Ok ok look at the bright side. I still need money in order to pursue my studies. What is there for me? Hmm...A great job! Yes it is great! I LOVE my job! Seriously! But only when there are students around. hahaha....^^ They brighten up my day. Everyday! Huhu.... As for now I need to brush up on my teaching skills. I know Im desperately lack of it. And I need to buck up on it. Well ~ I am learning. I am always learning. Thats what I love to do. Is to learn new things but the bloody problem with me is that I am easily bored. Haih~ what to do. -_-'

Next, speaking of things which are going on in my life??? Hmm....Things that I dare not raised it here. Things that If I dare. I would be in trouble. Ok cut the crap. I need a special someone now and I really need it fast before my mind goes headwire again. Falling in love with the wrong person is so devastating enough to know that Im in love with him. But of course it is hard and i wont be able to go far at this stage. So cut the crap and MOVE ON YAYA! YEAH!!! I must and need to move on. Leave these feelings or thrust it far away from my life. I hate falling in LOVE. Never like it. Hate commitments which involves with feelings. Thats for sure. If anyone wants me to get into a relationship now. Im sorry to say I have to pass but If you want to be my friend. Im glad to have you in my life! ^^

Cause I am the type who likes to be to myself. I like knowledge. I like practical stuff. As long as I have not reach my goals. I will NOT put my feelings first! OK!!! What are my goals??? If you really want to know that I am aiming for a Masters and a Second Degree. Hihi... Looks like I have a very Long way to go. STill waiting for my confirmation then I can hop into my goals. Huhuhu....

Ok folks. I shall continue another day...or time. As for now I have alot of things to settle. Haih~!!!!

Things is changing from time to time~

Hi readers! I know that I have not been posting anything for the past months! and from university life now working life~ Yes! I know things changes from time to time. It flies so fast. Like a lightning volt strikes while heavy clods comes. woo.... now. now im learning alot of things. I have been suffering before and many unwanted things happens. I hate my life priviously to the max. seriously. no joke. what can i do i have t0 bare with it. it is part and parcle of life. but as mr justin timberlake said what goes around comes back around. I can tell you that i have not done any bad things. yes i did some mistakes but i never did bad things. so what happen next? I got a call for an interview and straight away got a job. WOW! it is very suprising coz i have not graduated from my studies but im already working. haih~ what can I do.....its all based on fate. huu.... ok. then. tata... i need to go back home later~

Superstisiones

What superstisiones?What on earth is that?Ehm. Ehm. Superstitiones is actually superstition. Although, I may get the spelling wrong but it means the same thing. For those who do not understand what is superstition i think you should google it first. Basically, superstition means things that are made believes. Such as Dont walk under the ladder or else you will have bad luck. Or Dont break a mirror or else you will have 7 years of bad luck. Its not really bad luck but there are other consequences why people still believe in it. I may admit it there are alot of superstitions which I dont believe it and I feel its stupid. But now I get it. Why those days people loves to make up superstition. Its not only to scar people but also to take care of them especially small children. Is there any logical to it? Yes it does have logic in it. Take do not sit on the pillow or else you will get boil. Pillows are for putting your head and lying down. Its wont be nice to put your own head after sitting on it. Same as Do not go outside after dark or coz the devils are roaming around.

....not finish yet....coz im sleepy~

Screw!

Screw!

Im such a bitch!

I screw my own life over and over again!

I hate it!

From the smallest dust till the universe!

What have I done?

What is happening to me?

Why does everyone are against me?

and If they do cant they tell me what are my mistakes?

No!

But instead they bitch around!

Bitching about me!

Thats all they are good at.

Is that healty?

Owh, of course yes!

Very... healthy.

Infact, they kill the hole nation cause of it.

Kill it by stabbing them from behind.

Kill it by using a carving knife.

Ouch!

It hurts so bad!

As bad as a pandemic decease.

even worst.

It could never heal.

It will never heal!

Although one have tried for forgiveness.

One have told the truth but nothing but the truth.

but one never wins.

Coz the truth is not applicable to them.

Coz the truth are lies to them.

and coz the truth are not truth to them.

Coz pure lies is the new truth.

Pure lies is the best.

Pure lies made the nation together again.

although pure lies are actual lies.

and it had diverge away from it.

and at the end.

my life will remain broken.